Job Search, Or Life Manifest

During the break, we ate together smoke canteen education center in the routine of our unemployment compulsory. Dining Hall was crowded with people.

It was steaming stewed cabbage, which melted in your mouth and reminds me of the great Soviet dishes that are already 200 times cheaper. My companion treated cabbage with a large appetite. She was an attractive woman of forty, with a trim figure and regular facial features, which together with her lively way, made ​​her look more than a brown-eyed Gallic type, but the wife of Vorarlberg.

Like many others in my neighborhood, Martha was very talkative and now and then exploded with an extremely articulate passages eloquence. Relative longevity of German lexical units and usually loud way of speaking low, throat voice is always increased my sense of Austrian vocalizations of wealth.

In addition, Marta has spoken not only by the will, was a true champion of public speaking on various topics, and she always carried her articulacy in the group of unemployed, where we belonged, and those unemployed, forced to visit a course under threat that will be left without compensation and attempts to make himself inconspicuous -. they looked at her numbly in the absence of other entertainment during the long hours spent in the center of

Normally Vienna without a job, despite the excessive oral and written self-presentation, are not spoiled by higher education or a solid knowledge.

They have been trained to offer the world in a light package rapped the words, and hidden the simple truth of their uselessness in the labor market and its high utility as a provider of business on the AMS officials and coaches, as well as the simple fact that certain work sites in Austria were not better than the unemployment allowance.

Job seekers know that they must play their role and good hunting for a position with unlimited features, such as assistance, management and organization, which was the idea that they learned to yearn for the simulation - when one fusses about, shaking air talks and gets paid.

Marta managers looking for a place in a furniture showroom, where she could use her good communication skills and her natural disposition for art and design.

gave an image determination and enthusiasm, but when she started talking about her family, her mascara eyes immediately filled with tears. Between mouthfuls of cabbage, she told me the sad story of her ill parents and deprived childhood with neurotic problems inherited.

I felt a wonderful witness to this sudden burst of grief. However, there is a family drama in Martha mind as a basis for self-pity, did not diminish her ​​oratory dominate in the class room. Martha seemed to be ambitious and to identify its human values ​​only with her potential job. Complete control over the atmosphere of the unemployed as parasites of society at the center has invested greatly distort such identification.

The smallest detail has informed us of its interaction with future employers. She admitted that she felt lucky to get this opportunity, and how glad her mom will know about her triumph. Next time in the canteen, Martha is we who are involved in the debate, what shoes and dress she will need for the job, and her delight me happy too, as this is a great prospect is expecting her wardrobe.

In this highly critical point we said goodbye to Martha, because our course has been completed.

I was sent to other training under AMS.

At first I felt curious, but then shocked and stunned.

My duty is to sit through long days in cramped computer room air without suffering from the verbalization of the people around you.

This time, the unemployed - mostly men - are cared for in their chairs in the intimate proximity to me and spoke in full voice. It is especially difficult because I could not participate in talks and could not escape, he had to stay where I was and to fulfill the tasks on the computer will never need. I was sweating and trembling hour after hour, cursing my fate and sucking with all my negative attitudes pore fluids from the air. These attitudes, among other stimuli, is a nationalist basis. In difficult times people tend to form a collective national identity, when they want to compensate the lack of freedom and satisfaction with a sense of false superiority over foreigners minute.

Although it is sophisticated, never had such a depressing experience of my life. I did sell my liberty for fear of losing social security benefits, and was imprisoned in a small cell with beings who are also trapped and hating each other like animals in a cage, and especially hated me, which is harder to find common terms and is a bloody foreigner and meta suppressed rage.

I never liked going to the movies before, feeling himself to block viewers from both sides. Now the prolonged torture of a boring film traps, with a difference without a movie on screen occurs, but the old version of Photoshop that I could not cope with shaking hands.

I never liked going to the movies before, feeling himself to block viewers from both sides. Now the prolonged torture of a boring film traps, with a difference without a movie on screen occurs, but the old version of Photoshop that I could not cope with shaking hands.

, where I stood watching the trees and rivers, deep in the stupor of discontent, unable to think.

A few days later, he appeared in the business office and said that a consultant -. Overloaded with formal obligations of a woman, who was immediately amazed and indignant, that I could visit more useless courses

Later, I received an email from Martha. She wrote her well for a while after the disappointment with the furniture trade of the employer, who did not keep his word to get her involved.